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1. Johnny Deardorff on my after thoughts of doing this mission, I was an Army Engineer when I was there, and there is more to life than crushing big rocks into smaller pieces! after returning to the United States, My Knowledge wanted to go deeper into the world of Nuclear weapons and their effects.
   I transfered to the Nuclear Biological Chemical School in late 1983 Early 1984 at Ft. McClellan Al. and graduated in the top of the clase in the transitions course, for senior NCO’s I was stunned at what I didn’t realize how much DANGER was involved with this project, and how it affect all of us!
   I studied the tests from the 40s and the 50s and was stunned at the amount of devastation and it caused there not just to us engineers but the people and the beautiful country these people once had,
   I became involved in the Clean up vet groups as a technical advisor, I read reports and realize this is a operation with no end in site, these people have been ripped from their land, and under the most harsh but subtle terms told thank you, but we lied, sorry!. I am 110% dedicated to helping ( ALL ) the people who participated in the Islands, Soldiers, Sailors, Airmen, Civilians, Contractors, Department of Energy workers, who ALL collectively need help, this is bigger than the group of vets, this is a Country of people, and all the people who laid their lives on the line, no different than any Combat vet, except in combat you can shoot back, Radiation is Invisible and you can’t shoot back, you never know where or when you will step on your death from it. or how long yoru being exposed to it until too late, and that is our legacy,
   My goal is to get ( ALL ) the people who participated the help they need, physically, Mentally, Financially, spiritually, and maybe return one day to this beautiful place and maybe help get them some good from all the bad they have been through, and help them figure out when it will be safe for their generation to return to their paradise lost, I have a as I see myself as an American Soldier the duty within me, and it carried over into my civilian life the spirit of helping people, in Law Enforcement, and Firefighter, 25 years my whole life has been dedicated to teaching and public service, and I want it to be my legacy to continue until I can no longer go, and even then be some useful to others maybe with my knowledge, I know that in the future the things I did as a 19 year old kid, should never be put on anyone ever, I feel very strongly about never detonating nuclear weapons tests again, I feel very Strongly that they are not ever to used again, there are no winners in Nuclear war, We the vets are living proof the kill for decades after the flash, and destroy forever in the planets life, and only time and Lots of it will help, 24,000 years x 10 will it be safe, I have seen the Horrors of what they do, how they affect, how they destroy, We as humans must ask ourselves, are we wanting this to be what were noted for as intelligent human beings? mass destruction and death? my sticks bigger than yours! don’t make me use it!!!!! are we that arrogant to think we can win? makes you wonder for those without a guilt feeling of their power why do they have them, and like good little robots they will do as they are trained and push the buttons again one day,
   think about this if you will, why does a scientist shoot of 1,000 bombs, with 95 percent the same result, WHY? knowing they create nothing but useless waste land forever, knowing they cost billions to maintain, when there are people homeless and starving, why do we as humans feed such Ego’s
   other than to actually see a LIVE DETONATION. first hand not a video, feel the energy released, or is to say I did that? and brag that was my bomb!. knowing they will never have to deal with it 30 or 40 years later, Let the other sucker clean it up!, I did my job I built a different but same thing, the test book definition of Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again expecting a different result!
   My dream is to one day return there and Apologize on behalf of my Government that I love and served, and hope they will know in some small portion I care about them, who under threat of Court Martial if I spoke to them, so never knowing them, I gave my best for them and hope it will one day make a difference for them, Johnny Ray Deardorff Sgt. USA disabled retired Veteran.

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